The Lake

Sunscreen a miraculous thing if you use it lol. I lathered the kids up only to forget to do myself AGAIN. This is not the first time and won't be the last im sure that my kids end up fine and I end up a crispy critter. Be it i'm not THAT sunburned but I definately got color. I'll try to take a pic later when my hair doesn't look so windblown and lakewaterish. Had garage sale again on friday and saturday i made about 150 total on those days. I'm gonna list the rest of my stuff i didn't sell on ebay. So go look sometime maybe you'll like somethin. Scdaisy2000 is my ebay name. You know having a blog is almost scary. People reading your innermost thoughts. Kinda weird but also in a way its freeing. No hiding behind a fake facade. What you see is what you get. My weight I'm so not happy with ive lost alot but its still not enough . Will it ever be? I wonder that sometimes. What if i get to the weight I said was my ultimate goal only to think its not enough still? I just hope that my ultimate goal so far is attainable. Ive been tryin to get there for over 20 months now and still haven't reached it yet. Whats my freakin problem? Why can't I stop myself from eating abnormally large portions? Why can't I stop myself from drinking that damn dr pepper that I know contributes to my fat? Why can't I? WHY is it so hard for me? How is it that I can quit smoking but i can't conquer this? UGH the questions i ask myself daily. Fact of the matter is I'm still fat to ME. Ok ok off the pity party wagon i know. Anyway i'm not THAT depressed really i'm not i swear. Ok anyway i'm gonna stop typing now while i'm NOT having a pity party lol.