Little bit of Everything

I Think I'm regretting saying ok to the vasectomy, I know it was for the best REALLY, but I can't help but think about it. Everytime I see any program on tv where someone finds out they are pregnant or someone is pregnant or someone is giving birth I get sad. I know we can't afford anymore kids I know that my attempts for another girl will probably end up with another boy (when you have alot of one sex child there IS a reason for it). Acceptance is there but so is Sadness. I NEED to go to school and get my nursing degree done, I need to enroll first so Kirk is going to have to either come home early or go in late one day for me to go. Money is tight AGAIN what else is new. In a few months it shouldn't be an issue but just getting to that point will suck. Alex finally got a real bed this past weekend, I was looking for a twin bed for him he was sleeping on a futon bed which to me is uncomfortable but he didn't seem to mind it, But now he has a real bed and i'm glad i hate that damn futon. My dining area got moved to the room off the kitchen it looks so much more open now. Auntie flow has finally departed (yes i sent her to the WESTCOAST) . Also on the weight loss front i've lost 9lbs over the span of about 3 weeks which is great. I upped my carbs to 100 a day approximately, switched to diet rite soda which I love and I eat alot of lean protein and more fruits and veggies. My carbs mainly come from fruits and veggies. Although the other day I did endulge in some pasta. And last night I had one spoonful of mac and cheese. Hey a girls gotta have some carbs every now and then or I'll totally fail at losing weight. But I'm still doing it even though I haven't posted about it much. And So far thats all i got today to post I'm drawin a blank.