Family

You know I love my family but sometimes they really piss me off. They are forever forgetting I have more than one child. Everyone always calls and says hey can i take alex for the weekend ect.. Well sure but what about Zayden and Kai? Did you forget they exist? Did you forget they are your grandchildren too? I realize alex is the oldest and easiest to care for but come on this playing favorites shit has got to stop. It breaks my heart when I let Alex go to someones house and zayden and kai are having to stay home with mom and don't understand why alex gets to go and they don't. I'm about to put my foot down and say you know what if you don't take the others too you can't take any of them. PLEASE don't make me do that people. I don't wanna keep my kids from you but if you leave me no choice i will. I'm heartbroken everytime I hear I WANNA GO TOO from zayden when he sees his older brother leaving for someone elses house during the weekends. its NOT Fair!! And poor kai he doesn't even have a voice and he gets totally neglected by family. WTF is wrong with my family. On to something else I need to bitch about. Why must insurance be so GDAMN high. 400 a month in insurance is just unbelieveable and thats not even including coverage for me. So we are cancelling it and gonna get the insurance through the state that you pay for its like 30 a month for all my kids and right now we could use that break. We seem to be getting behind and I dont' see an end to it so this is a solution hopefully for a while. On a lighter note and happier note. Alex is out of school for the summer he is officially a 3rd grader! He passed and made pretty good grades. Mostly B's and one C not bad. This is much better seeing as he was failing several subjects mid six weeks. He's gonna have to work on reading and writing this summer to improve his fluency he's a little slow reading but i think thats due to his attention issues. He has a physical coming up and we are going to talk to the doctor about trying out strattera i think. I hate to resort to meds but i don't want him struggling in school because of my anxiety about meds. Gotta get over that. Kirk thinks he wants a motorcycle so we are looking for one preferably under 3k so he can get back and forth to work and I can have the car. I hate being a one car family. I feel trapped sometimes at home. And i can't enroll the kids in sports cause i can't get them to practices or games its just frustrating. So it would be nice and he's assured me that he would be extremely careful. He's getting a streetbike not a crotch rocket. Well thats my ramblings today for now maybe more will come to me later. Don't forget to watch American IDOL tonight !!! GO BO!!!