This is gonna be a Long one

Ok so I haven't posted sue me . Lots going on. This weekend was one of the busiest at home. And first let me say it had its good times and good fun but that got overshadowed by the bad so i'll elaborate. Kirk gets off work on Thursday and comes home its hot we have No A/c in the car cause after he got into that accident the people who straightened out the front in nicked the a/c and now it doesn't work and we haven't had a chance to take it back in for them to fix it which they will but since we only have one car its kinda hard to fit in a time to go. Anyway I digress he comes home its hot as hell he's not in the best mood (nothing new lately) comes in changes his clothes barely talks to me and goes to lay on the couch where he pretty much doesn't move from until dinner time. We eat dinner , then about an hour after that we get a call from our Best friend Mike he's wondering what we are doing and asks us if we will watch his kids so they can go out to play poker. By the time they get here its 10pm and they ended up just hanging out at our house till 12 which isn't terrible cause we don't go to bed till late anyway and it was nice seeing them. Friday comes around Kirk comes home in a hot car (shitty mood) again lays on the couch grills us some chicken we eat. After dinner we had a discussion about how much work each of us did on the dinner cause I wanted to make a new rule that whoever cooks doesn't have to do dishes and everyone else has to clean up. Well for that dinner I prepared EVERYTHING potato salad which takes about an hour, marinaded the chicken, shucked all the corn and put butter in them and rehusked them and wrapped them in aluminum foil. All he did was grill the chicken and corn which isn't very hard. So I said I did 90% of the dinner so he should do dishes well he disagreed said he did 40% . 40%??? please tell me how the hell you get 40% of the credit for dinner by just grilling i did all the damn prepwork and got EVERYTHING Ready. Not to mention washed a MOUNTAIN of dishes on my sink and counter cause no one else in this house bothers to do any fucking thing. Anyway dishes end up sitting in the sink that night not to mention because kirk thought he was going to have to do dishes he made us eat on paper plates UGH. LAZY!! Then Saturday came along. Kirks mom wanted to come over and go camping with the kids which is great I love her She's probably the best MIL i could ask for. Kirk set up the tent all was great we sat inside and watched tv. We go to bed at about 1 . 4:30am rolls around and I hear thunder and lightening (the kids and my mil are outside in the tent). So I roll over and say hey should i go tell her to bring the kids in and he just mumbled something at me and rolled over. So i get up and as i'm walkin out the door i say "thanks for the help" and walk out. I go outside wake them all up and at this point its getting more windy and more lightening and thunder so we carry the kids in and my Mil sleeps on the couch. We all go back to bed at about 4:45am . Fast Forward to 7am all the kids up so I gotta get up. My mil has since up and left which she said she would anyway cause she has a dog and she had to go let her out . I get up i clean the night befores messes cause on Thursday I invited Mike and his family back over for a BBQ. I clean the house AGAIN by myself pretty much dishes from the night before which i shouldn't have done cause I cooked most of it again. Made potato salad AGAIN i love summer cause i get to eat lots of that stuff lol. Got the kids all dressed. House cleaned its about noon now and the dishnetwork guy shows up (one of the satellites wasn't working) so he moves the dish a tree was blocking it (why didn't the first guy know not to put it there) . Kirk finally gets up while he's here its about noon and thats fine cause I slept in on Saturday. I cut up the ribs and season them and put them in a pot to boil. We sit around for a while waiting for mike and his family to get here. They finally get here about 3 Kirk about this time is showing his shitty mood colors again ( like thats anything new *eyeroll* The come in we say our welcomes ect.. I'm putting bbq sauce on the ribs getting them ready for the grill he goes outside gets it ready which is then when he starts to complain that he didn't really want do this today ( first official complaint of the day) and that he was tired (hello you slept till noon gimme a break) So i go out and hook up the slip and slide for all the kids they go out and play and have a great time practically drowned my yard but thats ok it needed it even after the rain the day before. Kirk finishes grilling brings in the ribs and i get everything all set up and put out in the kitchen on the cabinets so everyone can just go down the line of food and help themselves. Kirk is first he comes in and makes himself two hotdogs and gets some potato salad. HE made ribs but wasn't eating any at that time. We get all the kids food mikes kids devour all the ribs practically I only got ONE mind you they were huge beef ribs but still and i'm not complaining i got lots of other stuff i was full. I go in the kitchen and made a comment to kirk about their only being one left and he snaps back "i WAS going to take some to work for lunch but now theres not any" like it was all my fault that he didn't get any ribs. Um hello you should have got some when you made your plate before everyone else. OH i forgot something. Before we ate mike was playing PS2 and shae my dog walked by and got caught on the cord and the ps2 fell on the floor and broke (which can be fixed) and kirk mumbled to me " i can't have anything nice in this house" LIKE ITS MY FUCKING FAULT. Anyway after dinner we all are relaxing talkin and stuff its about 5 pm and mike mentions going swimming and kirk said "i don't swim i surf" um hello kirk your in texas and you can't surf and last time you surfed was 2 years ago and before that when we lived in california you only surfed about 3 times in that entire 5 years so YEA your a surfer WHATEVER. Guess cause I rode a bicycle a few times i'm a cyclist now WOOHOO. *insert eyeroll here* . Anyway mike wanted to go to the waterpark down the street and kirk didn't (suprise suprise he never wants to do anything). And I couldn't go without him cause I haven't updated my drivers license yet and in order to get resident rates I would have had to take a water bill with my name on it which is in HIS name so we were in the back bedroom and i said well are you going to go tell him your boring and don't ever wanna go do anything or am i gonna have to be the barer of bad news. He didn't say anything. So I go out and say sorry guys kirk is being anti social and doesn't wanna do anything right now and i can't go without him so i can't go either. At this point i'm pretty much in tears cause we never do ANYTHING EVER. Our life consists of him leaving in the mornings me cleaning house and watching kids and him coming home and taking a shit for an hour and plopping down on the couch till bedtime. *i'm getting bored kirk and this is a problem i'm UNHAPPY* I want to do things i want to go out i want to be a family you are NOT the only person in this house we want to do things WE don't want to lounge around EVERYFUCKING DAY tyvm. I want to live an active life not a lazy one. I'm Tired of being fat and you not wanting to go out and be active SUCKS . I realize your tired but you know what so am I and for the sake of our kids I want them to do stuff I don't want them watching tv Everynight all night like they have been its NOT healthy. We need to get out and do stuff. FREE Stuff i'm sure theres lots to do. This has got to change. Then kirk tried to hug and kiss me in the kitchen like i was gonna be receptive to it hello get your fucking hands off me and how dare you expect me to allow that when you were just a complete and total jerk to me and our friends. I'm stressed out and unhappy and bored this does not make for a good wife. Then after our friends leave I get a phone call about my dad from my grandma (his mom) she proceeds to tell me that he's been hanging out with the whore ex girlfriend that put him in jail for 2 years on a bogus charge cause she was pissed off at him. But I digress again my grandma said he's been with her and hanging out with her again and she's his girlfriend ect.. Well this pisses me off of course cause i can't stand the whore. Alex stayed over at my dads house about 2weeks ago and when my dad called he slipped and told me she was over there doing some laundry and cleaning his house and i blew the fuck up i yelled at him and told him i didn't want that whore near alex and to tell her to leave ect.. Well i went to pick up alex myself prepared for a knock down drag out fight cause i don't want that drug addict whore std infected bitch near my kid. When i picked up alex my dad was outside with him and wouldn't even let me out of my own car then some DRUG ADDICT FUCKER friend of my dads approched my car and i knew him from when i was a kid (BROUGHT BACK BAD MEMORIES THANKS DAD) i was livid . Not only did my dad have that whore around alex he had a fucking drug addicted asshole around him too NO FUCKING WAY !!! So anyway i call my dad lastnight and practically get into a shouting match he cussed me out like ive never heard and it was because i threatened him. I told him that if he was going to let trash like that come to his house then my kids can't come to his house anymore and he could come over here to see them instead. THAT pissed him off but you know what i don't care
they are my kids and he will either abide by MY RULES or he doesn't get to see them. I will NOT subject my kids to bullshit i saw when i was a kid NO FUCKING WAY IN HELL. anyway Dad and I worked it out He agreed not to let her come over anymore when my kids are there or anyone for that matter except one guy which i approved of he's a good guy. Anyway so that was my weekend I feel like hell today i'm just worn emotionally and drained , i don't even feel like being even remotely nice to kirk today after him being a butthead with an attitude all weekend i just don't have it in me today to forget it and be nice. UGHHH this sucks.......