Life is a bummer sometimes

I feel like I'm constantly complaining now days. Things just SUCK!! Kirk is working two jobs he started Saturday and i'm so not use to NOT seeing him. Ive seen him maybe an hour total in the past 3 days. But its all for the betterment of our financial situation so I just need to suck it up and quit being a cry baby. I'm still waiting on my background check to come back from West so I can start this weekend I hope it comes back tommorow. Yall pray for me lol. We WILL get out of this hole we WILL we just have to I can't bare to live like this for much longer. I feel terrible when i tell alex we can't go do things cause we don't have the money cause ive been telling him that for like a year now and i'm sick of it. I want to take my kids to the movies, and to six flags, and the zoo, and be able to AFFORD to do it. I want to buy alex school clothes and AFFORD to be able to do that. I want alex to have the COOLEST school supplies cause I remember how much I wanted the cool stuff and never got it. I will get it for him too I WILL make us afford to get it. I'm in a good frame of mind at the moment. At least for the moment it can't get any worse financially we are bringing in more money so slowly but surely we will get out of debt. Anyway thats all i got for now.