Get out of the Dog's Water!!

I think I say that phrase or Get out of the Dogs Food at least 20 times a day. Kai has an obsession with the food and water , I don't think my poor dogs get half of what I put in there. Summer is upon us Alex is out of school and its been raining here so its muggy and not warm enough for the kids to go play in the pool outside or slip and slide and definately not warm enough to go to the water park down the street just yet. I can't wait to take them to it though they will love it. Went to a graduation party on Sunday that was fun saw alot of my family , aunts, uncles, cousins , grandparents, it was quite funny at times. My great uncle got so drunk he almost fell over in the yard tryin to get up and walk. They had sumo wrestler outfits and some teenagers were out there in them it was hilarious. Kirk's up and back to normal pretty much now. Got lots to do today since alex is out of school i'm going to TRY and put together some kind of schedule for the kids so they have activities all day so that they don't get bored. And thats enough for now kai has shit and is showing me the poop on his hands he's pulled out of his diaper HOW NICE.

V-Day

So its post Vasectomy now, very much a slap in the face that says HEY no more kids for you. Thats ok though. Ty mr Cowboy doctor for saving my sanity for the rest of my life more kids and i'd have ended up a very looney mom especially if i'd have had another boy. 3 boys is plenty tyvm. Hubby is resting in bed the doctor scared him I think he was told to stay in bed on his back all day to avoid complications so thats what he's doing. I'm one kid less this weekend too Alex is gone to granny's house and then Z is going to my dads house on sunday. Poor kai left home again. Oh well if someone doesn't pick him next time taking my kids for any amount of days will stop completely. They WILL pay equal attention to all of my boys not just one. This weekend will be a quiet one despite the holiday we will just be lounging around especially Kirk. Although I might make him take us to the lake and have him just sit and watch lol. Nahh thats mean. Although i'd like to go but i 'think its going to rain. OMG today my grandmother was here and she made the BEST leftover chicken salad ever it was made from bbq chicken she rocks. I don't know what it is about her sandwich salads but they are just awesome. Thats enough for now.

Family

You know I love my family but sometimes they really piss me off. They are forever forgetting I have more than one child. Everyone always calls and says hey can i take alex for the weekend ect.. Well sure but what about Zayden and Kai? Did you forget they exist? Did you forget they are your grandchildren too? I realize alex is the oldest and easiest to care for but come on this playing favorites shit has got to stop. It breaks my heart when I let Alex go to someones house and zayden and kai are having to stay home with mom and don't understand why alex gets to go and they don't. I'm about to put my foot down and say you know what if you don't take the others too you can't take any of them. PLEASE don't make me do that people. I don't wanna keep my kids from you but if you leave me no choice i will. I'm heartbroken everytime I hear I WANNA GO TOO from zayden when he sees his older brother leaving for someone elses house during the weekends. its NOT Fair!! And poor kai he doesn't even have a voice and he gets totally neglected by family. WTF is wrong with my family. On to something else I need to bitch about. Why must insurance be so GDAMN high. 400 a month in insurance is just unbelieveable and thats not even including coverage for me. So we are cancelling it and gonna get the insurance through the state that you pay for its like 30 a month for all my kids and right now we could use that break. We seem to be getting behind and I dont' see an end to it so this is a solution hopefully for a while. On a lighter note and happier note. Alex is out of school for the summer he is officially a 3rd grader! He passed and made pretty good grades. Mostly B's and one C not bad. This is much better seeing as he was failing several subjects mid six weeks. He's gonna have to work on reading and writing this summer to improve his fluency he's a little slow reading but i think thats due to his attention issues. He has a physical coming up and we are going to talk to the doctor about trying out strattera i think. I hate to resort to meds but i don't want him struggling in school because of my anxiety about meds. Gotta get over that. Kirk thinks he wants a motorcycle so we are looking for one preferably under 3k so he can get back and forth to work and I can have the car. I hate being a one car family. I feel trapped sometimes at home. And i can't enroll the kids in sports cause i can't get them to practices or games its just frustrating. So it would be nice and he's assured me that he would be extremely careful. He's getting a streetbike not a crotch rocket. Well thats my ramblings today for now maybe more will come to me later. Don't forget to watch American IDOL tonight !!! GO BO!!!

WAKE UP !!

Ever wake up one day to your head POUNDING like a freakin alarm clock going WAKE UP!!! Thats exactly how my head feels. Every step i take walkin around the house my head pounds so freakin hard I have to sit down. Wanna know what caused this really nice headache? CAFFINE WITHDRAWL stupid people that make soda. UGH . I haven't caved though i'm drinking sweetened tea though I'm going on the no more soda kick again makes me fat. So in the mean time i'm drinking ice tea with splenda or propel fitness water which btw is really good i like the tropical citrus one and the grape they taste like koolaid ANYTHING to disguise the taste of water. Anyway i'll post more when this damn headache goes away....

The Lake

Sunscreen a miraculous thing if you use it lol. I lathered the kids up only to forget to do myself AGAIN. This is not the first time and won't be the last im sure that my kids end up fine and I end up a crispy critter. Be it i'm not THAT sunburned but I definately got color. I'll try to take a pic later when my hair doesn't look so windblown and lakewaterish. Had garage sale again on friday and saturday i made about 150 total on those days. I'm gonna list the rest of my stuff i didn't sell on ebay. So go look sometime maybe you'll like somethin. Scdaisy2000 is my ebay name. You know having a blog is almost scary. People reading your innermost thoughts. Kinda weird but also in a way its freeing. No hiding behind a fake facade. What you see is what you get. My weight I'm so not happy with ive lost alot but its still not enough . Will it ever be? I wonder that sometimes. What if i get to the weight I said was my ultimate goal only to think its not enough still? I just hope that my ultimate goal so far is attainable. Ive been tryin to get there for over 20 months now and still haven't reached it yet. Whats my freakin problem? Why can't I stop myself from eating abnormally large portions? Why can't I stop myself from drinking that damn dr pepper that I know contributes to my fat? Why can't I? WHY is it so hard for me? How is it that I can quit smoking but i can't conquer this? UGH the questions i ask myself daily. Fact of the matter is I'm still fat to ME. Ok ok off the pity party wagon i know. Anyway i'm not THAT depressed really i'm not i swear. Ok anyway i'm gonna stop typing now while i'm NOT having a pity party lol.

Garage Sale Day

So Yes i'm having a garage sale AGAIN. I had one Monday I made 460 bucks but it was cause i sold a car for 400 . lol. So I'm having it again today and tommorow. So far this morning ive made 24 bucks and its about 10:30 so in 2 hours thats not bad i guess. Getting rid of your stuff is hard. Especially the baby stuff. We are selling a crib matress and its like the final nail in the coffin that we aren't having anymore kids and i'm ok with that i guess. Its weird when people come look at all your stuff to see if they want any of it almost like they are going through your dirty laundry and going ewww look lol. People buy the weirdest shit too. This morning some old lady bought two phones my son wanted to sell one was a puppy phone and one was a tennis ball phone SO cheesy but whatever floats her boat lol. Anyway back to man the garage sale...

And one more thing

Nana nana nananana hey hey hey GOODBYE VONZELL YOU SUCK lol. GO BO!!!!!

Ok so I lied

Ok so I lied i said I was gonna color my hair pink. I couldn't do it first of all cause alex had an assembly at school today and I really didn't think that it was appropriate. Second cause I already bought a red hair color. And third cause i'm a huge chicken. BAWK BAWK here me squawk lol. Anyway so this is what my hair looks like now I like it alot. Takes forever to fix it just right though cause I'm not use to it. Alex's assembly was kinda weird he got some awards nothing fancy cause he hadn't been there but like 4 weeks he got perfect attendence for the time he's been there and most friendly . Kirk went to the parent teacher end of the year conference with his new teacher she said he will be going on to 3rd grade but she said he needs to really work on his reading and writing this summer. I got a sloppy writer which is weird cause his cursive is excellent for his age his previous teacher said, Just his print isn't so legible lol. I walked 2 miles today and got told I looked thinner. Which BTW THANKS it made me feel good you know who said it. Anyway tell me what ya think leave some comments lol.

me again 

my new hair 

My Perfect Attendance Kid

I'm so freakin proud Alex got a Perfect attendance award from school he gets the ribbon tommorow at an award assembly. ALSO today he had a major math test it was for the last six weeks he got the highest grade in the class which was a 92. I'm so very proud of him. I was gettin worried about him he was having a rough time of switching schools he was failing several subjects mid 6weeks cause he wasn't turning stuff in NOT because he didn't know it. He's definately straightened up and started turning his stuff in and making better grades. He's usually not very good at spelling and the last two weeks in a row he's made a 92 and a 96 on his spelling tests so MAYBE just maybe i'm doing the right things with him so he does well.

Perfect 

ME 

Testing Testing Are you Paying Attention?

So ive decided to try this blog thing here Little bit different than diaryland but thats ok sometimes change is good. Can i just say Last night American Idol was just absolutely fabulous, Bo sung his ass off it was awesome he made me literally cry when he sang without the band. Carrie was good too but not nearly as good as Bo which btw i think its very good looking. Definately a good ole country boy. Gettin my hair cut SHORT short so I'll post a pic once i get it my dear friend KALLI (brat) double dog DARED me to color it pink so to say the least i have to go get pink hair color tonight after I get it cut. Its summer hell why not. School is almost out I'm so looking forward to swimming and tanning and going COMPLETELY insane from kids lol . Im sure I'll get over that. I need to do more during the day anyway i don't ever do anything anyway getting out will do me good. Well heres to the first post at blog spot *CHEERS* happy reading!